Now let's pretend that, all of a sudden, being in the true presence of God, you are notified that God wishes to enter your being and become one with you. What do you do?
I don't know about you, but I'm pretty sure I would be dumbfounded. Awe-struck. I would probably fall to my knees in adoration.
As it turns out, this is exactly what happens when we receive Communion! As stated and clarified by Jesus, the bread that we break is his flesh indeed, and the Catechism tells us that when we receive Him, we receive Him in Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity.
In meditating the true meaning of the Eucharist over the past few weeks, I have uncovered an intense desire to kneel to receive Communion. Although kneeling is standard practice in the Tridentine Mass, standing is the norm in the Ordinary Form. However, letters to U.S. Bishops and Catholic individuals from the Congregation for Divine Worship and the Discipline of the Sacraments have stated that "communicants who choose to kneel are not to be denied Holy Communion on these grounds."
Being about to burst with desire to adore Christ in the Eucharist at the moment of Communion, I spoke to a local priest who told me to simply... pray about it. So I did, and after a couple of weeks, the desire had only intensified. I went back to him, and he encouraged me to kneel if I felt led to it. So I did.
Three days later, I decided to bring up the matter with my pastor, because I knew that some priests wish to adhere to the directives of the U.S. bishops much more strictly when it comes to posture during Communion.
In the end, I was asked not to kneel for Communion. I obeyed out of respect for my pastor, who holds authority over me, but a gaping wound was left in my heart.
In spite of the Pope's wish to contrary, I am aware that Catholics throughout the United States have also been asked not to kneel in order to maintain unity within the Body of Christ. So I ask: If, in the name of "unity," we are asked not to adore Christ in the way Catholics have done for centuries up until a few decades ago, what next?
Certainly, I have no desire to go against authority. There's more than enough of that rebellious attitude in the church. I also don't care to call attention to myself. Most of all, I have no desire to disrupt the Mass.
But if the longing in my soul to adore my Lord was put there by the Holy Spirit himself, what next?
The desire to adore Christ as his whole Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity enters my being is not going away. Someone said that maybe it's God calling me to something. If that is so, I don't know what. "Pray about it," they say. And I do.
But the more I pray, the clearer things become: Christ, who is the second person of the Holy Trinity, who is in heaven with all the angels and saints, with Holy Spirit in the glory of God the Father... is truly and substantially present in the Eucharist. And He patiently awaits me. You, too.
Longing for God,
The Catholic Wife